a phone call and a journey

today i was not so much transported as 

yanked

back in time.

but having been abruptly brought there, i

have lingered.


i have been 4 today, and 4 years ago

today.

i have been 16 and 19 and 21 and

2.


i re-visited my 30s (skin was still taut) 

and pondered my 40s. 

looked back over all of it

like a tapestry (yes, thought of carol

king) and counted

the

threads.


i remember so much and have learned

even more.

i am lucky.


as i count my blessings on my fingers, 

they smell like original herbal essence.


i go back to the beginning of my life and 

re-live it.



as far back as when conditioner was called


creme

rinse.