Pages

Saturday, October 20, 2012

at last......my love has gone.......and i am getting better.

i haven't bought anything frivolous since my husband left. i've been too afraid to - not knowing if or when the financial bottom of my life is gonna drop out. the same way the emotional bottom of my life dropped out.

i haven't shopped anywhere fancier than target. i haven't traveled farther than urbana, ohio. 

with the exception of occasional fast food (and i try to stick to the dollar menu), birthdays and other celebrations, and having lunch with abby and the kids, i have not eaten out. this from a person who used to know every fine restaurant in every nook and cranny of this city like the back of her hand.

when i go to the grocery, i look for the cheapest and not necessarily the best. thank heavens i'm creative in the kitchen.

but, today.......today i splurged. and the funny thing is, it isn't even a splurge. there was a time when i would have considered what i bought today to be not even a blip on the radar. i wouldn't have thought twice about it. see it, buy it, out the door. that's how i used to live.

but, today.......today i splurged. i went to crate and barrel and bought a wine glass and a coffee mug. and then i went to pottery barn and bought a partridge in a pear tree salt and pepper shaker thingie-do.

it came to a grand total of $58.08.

and i have not stopped smiling since i bought these things. not because these things are so wonderful, but because:

  1. i did something for myself. after all. this. time. and...
  2. i'm getting over him.