on friday, i saw the mom of a former client who i haven't seen in about 4 years. she remarked, in what i could tell was a very sincere way, that i looked good. she remarked on it several times during our conversation and then finally, she said, "nancy, i just can't get over how good you look. it's like.....it's like......it's like something wonderful has happened to you."
like. something. wonderful. has. happened. to. me.
i couldn't believe how wrong she was. and i told her so. i said, "something wonderful? hardly. something life-alteringly devastating is more like it."
and she said, "well. if something life-alteringly devastating happened to you, then it was a blessing in disguise."
a. blessing. in. disguise.
i couldn't believe how right she was.
it's not that i haven't thought of my tragedy before as a blessing because i have. many times. but i sure never realized that the blessing showed. to others. and now that i do realize it, the blessing has suddenly multiplied in value.
if i can somehow be a visible example of what wonders God can work in a person, then bingo, multiplied blessing! i want more of where that came from!
and i hope the blessing that God gave me (albeit in a disguise that only He could ever come up with)......i hope that the blessing He gave me shows on more - much more - than just my face. because my face doesn't count.
what counts is what i do with my tragedy/blessing and, i hope, i have done good things. i know i have tried. one of the good things i have tried to do is to tell my story - in various ways, through various approaches (this blog being chief among them). the reason you hear me preaching at you so much is because you can't see my face. (and even if you did, you'd ascribe all the glory to maybelline.)
there is a God, people. and He does work in mysterious ways. and you can try to ignore that fact and to live your life in your own independent, smug little shell.
but it won't look good on you.
